The Blog of clayantony

its actually just a couple of hours since i wrote my last blog,my son stood me up/blew me out-however you choose to put it,i went round to pick him up but he wasn't there,i phoned him but he wouldn't answer,..I'm a big boy,life is way too short to be bothered by such trivial things!.on my way home i thought i would treat myself to a loverly king prawn curry,Chinese,...with prawn crackers & a can of coke,  yes,that is right,A CAN OF COKE,no drink for me tonight,thank-you very much indeed.the curry was nice,its been years since i had a takeaway meal while i was sober-it actually tastes quite nice,I'm really bloated.

Micheal palin is on tv traveling across the Sahara,its really inspiring me,i have not traveled since 1995,..wow,thats thirteen years,i have money in the bank,i ain't a millionaire or nothing,i can always muster a few thousand pounds,i should get off my lazy arse & visit some places,Paris & Vietnam come to mind straight away,..who knows i might even meet the love of my life,..LIGHTNING CAN STRIKE!

the last time i traveled i went all the way through Thailand & the Indonesian islands,..it was marvelous,a life affirming experience,..after that i worked on a farm in Australia,...really great times,..when i arrived back in england i looked down from the plane & thought,"what am i doing back here?"-my life went down hill fast from thereon in,i started doing too many drugs & pulled away from everyone i knew,things have got a bit better since,at least i am on a level field now,i think that expecting to be happy is foolish,..if some happiness comes along & i am lucky enough for it to smile upon me then i will let it in & enjoy it,..I'm sure it will not last long,experience has shown me that.

anyway I'm going to leave it at that,I'm getting deep & starting to moan,later alligator!